
I have recently a lot of mixed feelings, because there is a sore spot in mind.
I also can sit down and face when writing quickly.
The phone today and when her husband comes a very philosophical question, that is the reason why life can be extended, because we can not predict the future. This Saturday, Beijing time of the morning, should be the husband to send our dogs Bimmer "on the Rainbow Bridge" when. Because it can be predicted that the future can not be avoided, I have sad for a long time. I have very much hope that they have to predict the future and plan for the future of the skill, a child likes to do those test questions, and even thought of Buddhism practice Buddhism in order to open up an "eye in the sky." But now I finally understand the joy of life lies in our future aspirations and expectations, and we can not help but look forward with optimism that there would be better to happen, but life's inevitable sadness and bad luck we estimate will take not want to know ostrich policy.
I can not to guess what I'll do next, how much they earn, how many children, live, live to teens, there is not as good as a good martial arts pondering these have a good day now, concerns the present. Lamented that her husband did not know five years later, we will go where, I said just let it go, when the time then. Really keep up with changes in plans, I am finally planning for the future of such control want to completely lose interest.
However, there would also like Incidentally, there are many wonderful people are still ahead of sensors, not superstition, but our understanding of ourselves and the natural world was still relatively small, a lot of things not well explained. We are discussing at home, all that the Bimmer's departure and I was pregnant with the baby are closely linked. In retrospect, I was highly unlikely that pregnancy and without any preparation on the play into the hands of the situation. At that time, out of bad, they somehow less coffee, and because it was flying the aircraft a day, then go to a meeting, sleeping only a few hours, seriously need the help of coffee, but do not know why that is do not drink. After the return to Beijing, one day decided to go downstairs to the drugstore to buy a pregnancy test paper, and firmly believe that shown above and on my mind as to the outcome. These occurred in Bimmer got bone cancer before we know. Knowing the news of the Bimmer sick, I thought for a moment before and after the Union, and then very persistent, that they must be a baby boy had. Husband told me that this conjecture is very objective and calm attitude, always said that B-after look. However, B-and I think the result is the same. Maybe everyone is a little more or less the ability to foresee the future, we do not feel that they have, nor how to think. I remember the first three months of pregnancy, my mind is especially clear, but nothing like what happened, of course, there are good and bad. Dream dream and reality of the great things that would fit.
I do not know Friday night I can normally sleep, what would be a dream. Saturday morning I will flee to where? I imagine a few place, temples looking for quiet, gym toil, or to noisy supermarket not allow yourself to think too much, I have not decided yet. Her husband said that we should be "celebrating
life "attitude towards the existence and departure of Bimmer, I have occasionally joked that" Bimmer has long been the reincarnation reborn into my stomach had. "
In fact, I quite look forward to the arrival of next week, because there are a relief, and bid farewell to the past. And two months later, three of the family life they going to be what I imagined not come out, as well as the painful process of childbirth, I do not bother to think I know as a kind of joy when they.